MY MEMORIES
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Hey there, I just found some time to come online for an update to my blog. Recently, I have found out that the friends I used to have, who told me that we’ll be friends forever, have changed. Maybe what shaiful said was correct all along, people changes, everyone will change in the matter of time. I see that life has become more like a clique than a regardless of range friendship. If I clique with you, you are my friend, if I cannot, than too bad, get off my shoulders. Shaiful taught me a lot of things that are really meaningful. I now agree with what he says. My mother recently become a little irritating but in the bible, we have to love our mother three times first, as what shaiful told me before. My father and I have become closer over the days as we are seeing each other ever so seldom. When he goes to work, I’m asleep, when I return from work, he’s asleep. We hardly have time for each other at all. Once during a thunder storm, I asked god for a sign, a sign to whether the world has changed or whether I’ve changed, in an instant, the thunder roared and it was a really loud one. I suppose that’s the sign god wants to show me. I love the people around me, but I cannot always be the one to give in after something goes wrong. Emiko, I am wondering now, is it because of the life I’m leading now, or the lack of time to meet up for a good talk that has caused a drastic change in our friendship? Let me know.
``*Debbie* ; 10:20 PM
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
I am starting school soon and am not very looking forward to going there. Maybe its because I am so happy with what I am doing now that I do not wish to come out of it ba. Currently my friendship with baboon has developed further and we talk on the phone every night, be it just half an hour or for two, three hours. I must admit that I enjoy his company and talking to him. He gives me a sense of security and often makes me feel happy whenever I am down. I told him once that I like to just sit alone and just stare up at the stars. Although in Singapore, its hard to find beautiful stars in the sky. Actually stars are all the same, it’s just where we can get to see them clearer and brighter.
Baboon is the only one I can share my life with now, he listens to my problems and is always patient with me, although people in marche say that he is a flirt and is not easy to get along with, I find him unlike what people say, he is one of the best person I’ve ever known. Baboon has helped me forget Steven and have left a great impact in my life. Today is the last day I will be seeing him in person before he breaks off for full time studying. We held hands while we were in the cinema and than when we walked from ps to wisma, I thought he would refuse holding my hand, but we crossed fingers and walked like a couple. I suppose I am beginning to fall for the guy, maybe I have, maybe we have, but we are just not feeling it yet. I just wanna let fate do the rest of its job in what we have.
``*Debbie* ; 11:05 PM
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